| Okay, not that anyone looks at this anymore, but.... |
[Jan. 6th, 2009|08:52 pm] |
Yeah, so. I'm not writing anymore.
For a while. lol
idk I may start something new.
Anywaaaaaaaay: I'm in desperate need of $10. So I can buy Fight Club on iTunes, thus having it on my computer AND iPod. Yeah-ya.
I'm hoping that with my birthday, money will come. So I can buy Fight Club. Maybe A Clockwork Orange for my iPod, too. Then I'll probably buy like way more books than I actually need. hehe
So yeah. Hi to any of my RL friends reading this. And hi to any LJ friends that might still be reading this. ^____^
If anyone wants to talk about how rad Alex or the Narrator are, the comment section is wide open. lol |
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| Obligatory "I'm not dead" post. =/ |
[Dec. 19th, 2008|06:53 pm] |
Even though no one reads this anymore, because I let down all of my readers. I MASSIVELY let them down.
But seriously, if any of you guys are still reading this, guys. I've been looking over "Monster" lately, and I've been looking at Chapter 20. It's itching to be written, you guys. I want to write it. But I don't want to start writing and posting again, only to let you all down again.
So, for those who see this and used to enjoy my fic, would you like me to post more chapters, with the risk that I may stop and start sporadically again? Or do you just want me to go die (like everyone else in the world does)? |
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| Oooh, look, I'm being all post-y tonight. |
[Oct. 28th, 2008|06:48 pm] |
Yeah.
So since I've been gone, I have not been dead/off the face of the earth.
And since I am a living FBR fan with functioning ears, I have heard Razia's Shadow.
Holy balls, man. Greatest album ever? Yes. |
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| SRRRRRY! |
[Oct. 28th, 2008|06:25 pm] |
This will be a short post, in bullet points.
-I'm so friggin' sorry for not posting in forever!
-I'm even more sorry that I don't have a Monster update for you guys yet....
-Seriously, I'm stuck. I have writer's block.
-I stopped my Joncer Twilight AU because I'm stuck with that, too. It's garbage anyway.
-I'm going to do some writing exercises that will help me continue with Monster (for realz, I've done research and stuff on writing exercises designed to end writer's block...I'm dedicated to you guys, don't worry).
-I'm also starting a new fic, that I will hopefully post someday. I've only just started my research for it, though. It'll be a cult fic.
-I have some questions for any of you reading this that read Monster. I would really appreciate it if you guys could fill this out. It's only a few questions and I think it might help me get some wheels turning. PLEASE KEEP IN MIND THAT THE WAY YOU ANSWER THE QUESTIONS WILL NOT SWAY THE ENDING. I ALREADY KNOW HOW THE REST OF THE STORY GOES AND HOW IT ENDS.
"Monster" Survey
1. Who will Mikey end up with?
a. Gerard b. Mike c. Frank d. Bert e. Some currently unknown character. (If so, any guesses who?) f. No one.
2. Is Gerard with Bert?
a. Yes. b. No.
3. Will Mikey forgive Gerard?
a. Yes. b. No.
4. Will Mike and Gerard ever be able to be friends?
a. Yes. b. No. c. No, but they'll be able to be civil around each other.
5. At the end of CH. 19, where did Mike go?
a. Just out for a drive. b. To find Michael. c. To hurt and/or kill Gerard. d. To Chicago.
6. Do you guys hate me?
a. Yes. Go die, you stupid bitch. b. Yes, but don't die yet. Finish Monster THEN die. c. Naw, I don't hate you.
See? That's it! It's even multiple choice, guys.
Okay, so that wasn't so short. Sorry, flist. |
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| Why me? |
[Aug. 8th, 2008|08:24 pm] |
Okay. So it's rare that I hope people in my RL will see this, in fact I hope that everyone in my RL doesn't know that I have a LJ account.
But this is to you, Boy With The DJ Headphones. I know you don't know, but I hope you do know, and I hope you see this.
You're a terrorist. You know why? Because you terrorize me, and I know somehow, you get kicks out of it. You probably go home and chuckle to yourself, "Ha, that silly soph is totally in love with me. I should make myself even sexier just to taunt her."
Okay, so maybe not exactly that, but something like it.
I want you to stay away from me. Because it seems like no matter where I go, you're there. Between all my classes, I always see you, right in front of me in the hall.
And I got caught up in staring at the back of your head today and I ended up following you to your math class on accident. So I was late to my Science class. Guh, thanks a lot. Could you at least try to be less beautiful?
Anyway, I want to switch out of my Language class. Because that's the only class we have together and I don't want to give myself a whole hour to stare at your beautiful face. It's not fair to me. It hurts.
So stop terrorizing me with your beauty. Please? It's not fair, and it hurts me. I haven't had self esteem issues since the 6th grade, and you, buddy, are making me feel like a 6th grader right now. I feel like I'm not worth anything.
You know what my journal is covered in now? My nice, fancy journal that my grandpapa just gave me? There's a whole two pages of me saying "No one that beautiful could ever love someone so average."
Three guesses who the beautiful one is. You, good job. You only get one guess as to who the average one is. Me. Good job.
So just please, please give me a chance to not look at you and hopefully, eventually forget all about you. It's too painful to think about you.
I still love you, though.
Oh, and by the way, I can't even watch the hot vampire ballet video now. Whenever I see it, I think of you. Because, to top off all the perfections I've already noticed in you, you remind me of Jasper from Twilight. I wish you weren't so perfect. Go die in a corner. I bet you'd even do that with grace and beauty. |
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| hot boyvampire ballet? yes pleeeeeeeeeaaaaaze! |
[Aug. 8th, 2008|06:23 pm] |
guys, even though i LOVE dancing ballet, i hate watching it.
but GAWD this is amazingly hot.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szuNHjByPl4&feature=related
RAWR! boy vampire ballet....sexysexySEXY! unf.
i mean really now. it's great. if you like stuff about vamps, you'll like it. it's seeeeeexy.
ETA- wtflulz i just realized what that familiar song in the background is. it's like...a choir singing smells like teen spirit. i repeat, wtflulz. i was watching it thinking, "damn these lyrics sound familiar. what is it?" then i recognized the "she's over-bored and self assured" part. lol |
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| -le sigh- |
[Aug. 7th, 2008|08:16 pm] |
I wrote a poem about burning toilet paper in a forest with a girl named after a cheese.
I sang a song about Romeo's alter ego, Ro-emo with the father of my future babies.
I fell in love with the Boy With The DJ Headphones.
Oh what a crazy land Phoenix is. |
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| the BUTCHER! |
[Aug. 4th, 2008|10:21 am] |
heheheheh! i finally watched the tai tv that i missed while i was away.
ZOMG i LOVED it!
obviously, there will never be a part 2, because with all the to be continued's in tai tv history, none of them HAVE been continued. lol
but this was perfect anyway.
my heart exploded with joy when william put the bandana on his knee. and then it exploded AGAIN when he delivered the amazing line-
"check THIS, juliet."
i laughed way too hard at that.
oh, and mike is being way too sexy again. he needs to be punished, in an equally sexy manner. rawr. -jumps on him-
and i love how sisky only yells for the butcher. "the BUTCHER!" hahaha, he's practically begging the fandom to pair him and the butcher. (gawwwwd, they'd be sexy together. good choice, sisky. good choice.) |
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| ayayayayayay |
[Aug. 3rd, 2008|08:25 pm] |
i finished reading breaking dawn today at around noon.
can i just say how much i freaking LOVE EMMETT?!?!?!? he's hilarious.
jasper's still my fav. he's such a sweetie. alice is absolutely the greatest thing since jasper.
oh, and while i was in washington, i went to forks with my lovely cousins. got a jasper shirt at the general store!!!!!!!!!
also, over the past week, i've done some crazy reading. like nonstop. that's all there is to do in washington, other than chill with my favorite cousins.
i-
(re)read twilight
(re)read parts of new moon
(re)read eclipse, three times
read survivor by chuck palahniuk
read a clockwork orange by...anthony burgess? is that his name?
read anthem by ayn rand
and then i read some manga
oh, and then i read breaking dawn in way less than 24 hours. lol |
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| seeeaaaattlllllle! |
[Jul. 26th, 2008|08:03 am] |
going to seattle today.
i'll be staying in port angeles for a week.
so yeah, no comp while in seattle and port angeles. if i ever get to the go to the library, i'll log on though. just for a quick update.
so for now, i'll leave you with one of my new favorite quotes.
"...you can taste the finest of wines. whisper the sweetest of nothings. and cop the cheapest of feels." |
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| lulz |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|10:31 pm] |
"contestants, you will be competing in various, unsavory, physical challenges that may or may not involve the word 'banana hole.'"
hahahahaha. |
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| oh, jasper -le sigh- |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|05:54 pm] |
jasper hale is sex on legs.
because, apparently, i like my men tall, blonde, and immortal. (and fictional.)
gee thanks stephenie meyer. now i'll never be happy with anyone because they just won't be jasper-y enough for me. thanks a lot you hobag. =P
i'm still awaiting any of the breaking dawn quotes of the day to be from jasper. -is impatient- |
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| grrr.... |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|01:05 am] |
i've decided that i'm going to convince my mother that vampires ARE sexy. even if it kills me. she thinks it's really creepy how much i love the idea of the twilight vampires. i've TRIED to tell her how sexy they are, and i've TRIED showing her some of the pics from the set of the movie, but she won't look.
i've already got her eyeing my copy of new moon. she loooooves the cover. but new moon wouldn't convince her...the majority of the book is all dog-centric. hardly any sexy vampires, besides the very beginning and the very end.
even still, my mother simply will not read anything longer than a magazine article and even then she only skims.
so my only hope is the twilight movie. if i can get her to take me to it (when it comes out of course) and get her to watch it, i KNOW she'll be convinced.
my mother would definitely be an emmett lover. i can tell. (but she would sooooo hate on my boy jasper. i'm a jasper lover, and i know my mom would accuse him of being girly. betch.)
i will, of course, have to see the movie before i allow my mother to go with me. i have a feeling that the first time i see this movie, i'll squeal so much at so many times that she would probably mock me forever. my mother hates when i squeal out of joy or have ~fangirly moments. which happens a lot when i'm around anything twilight related. |
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| GUH life sucks.... |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|08:24 pm] |
ohmigawd, my life sucks right now, guys.
i have a fucking blood blister. it hurts soooooooo baaaaaaaad! -cries-
AND i almost threw up this morning. -cries in the corner- i didn't but i felt like i was going to.
throwing up sucks, but feeling like you're just about to mixed with the anticipation of it is worse. to me at least.
i think i might shoot myself in the foot. too bad i don't have a gun
BTW, i just finished rereading eclipse (for like the hundredth time) and i've decided that i love seth clearwater. i still prefer vampires to those stupid dogs, but seth is cool. (and it's SOOOO cute that he's like the baby of the pack. ^_^ and i love how he's friendly with edward. it's cute.)
but i still hate all of the other stupid fucking dogs in the books. especially jacob. but everyone that knows me knows that i am extremely anti-jacob black. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2008|06:55 pm] |
i just went through my email's notepad (where i write and store all my fics) and...i have over 100 in there.
guys, it's seriously sad the amount of fics i write compared to the amount of fics i post.
i start SOOOO many, but i never post them.
the sad thing is, i still continue to write them, even though i have no intention of ever posting them.
it's just...fun. and i send some of them to my close rl friends that actually dont mind reading slash as long as i'm the one who wrote it.
anywho, i think i'm going to start a new fic (okay, i lied, it's already started) that i might actually start posting.
at this point, i'm thinking it will be a gabilliam, but that it subject to change (because i haven't even mentioned names in the fic yet. it's all descriptions right now). but i'd really love to keep it gabilliam, but i'm in love with the pairing.
but, i might change it to a joncer. because as much as i love gabilliam, joncer might be my otp right now. all i've been reading lately is joncer and gabilliam fics. (tbh, i don't really even read mcr fics anymore....i don't know why, i've just lost some of my interest in them.)
*LE GASP* maybe that's why i haven't been writing so well for monster!!!!! because i've lost most of my interest in mcr fics....*calmer le sigh* i shouldn't be thinking that. i could never just stop writing monster. you guys would kill me.
anywho (again, i get side tracked a lot), i'll work on this new fic, and then if i like it enough, i'll post it.
i'll warn you. it's a vampire fic. if you're not into that, then -meh- guess this isn't your fic. it's not like average vampire things, though. the vampires in this are more like the twilight-universe vampires than dracula vampires because i DESPISE dracula vampires. i much prefer the twilight-universe vampires. |
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| CH. 19 |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|10:12 pm] |
Title: But I'm The Monster.... CH. 19
Author: apsockmonkey
Pairing: Mikey Way/Mike Carden, I guess there's a bit of Mikey Way/Gerard Way (but not really)
Rating: R? Hard PG-13? I'm bad at this.
Summary: Mikey and Gerard's relationship, stemming from their childhood and the other relationships Mikey forms.
Disclaimer: Seriously, if I owned Mikey, Gerard, and Frank, why the hell would I be on my computer? I think I'd be a little too busy with *ahem* other stuff. ;) And if I owned Mike Carden, I don't think I'd ever leave my room. ^_^
Warnings: Language, discussed themes, violence. Yeah. Violence is the major one in this chapter I think.
Dedications: OME, All of the people that read this that have been so patient with me. I suck. You deserve someone who can deliver good fics on a regular basis, and I'm sorry that I haven't been able to do either of those.
( So here it (finally) is. ) |
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[Jul. 20th, 2008|05:05 pm] |
okay, so ch. 19 is almost done (should be up late tonight, unless i fall asleep, but i don't think that'll happen).
but the main point of this post is...
i just realized...edward cullen is a 107 year old virgin.
o_O
can you say 'sexual frustration?' lol |
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